I am going home today for thanksgiving! It is so exciting! But I am having a hard time getting going today. I haven’t been sleeping that well lately and I have been struggling in the morning. Struggling with ridiculous questions that have no real consequences. Like what I should eat for lunch. Or whether or not I should blow dry my hair. Or whether I should answer the phone when I don’t know the phone number(most of the time I don’t).
Yesterday I was severely dyslexic. I’m not dyslexic in the original sense, but I have dyslexic tendencies. It took me about ten minutes to open my locker because I couldn’t remember the order. I knew the numbers, just not the order. Intensely frustrating.
I think this is all a result of the impending stress of finals. When I get stressed, the little things in my life get a lot harder. Maybe it is the lack of sleep that starts to make me stupid. I lose things. Actually, I lose a lot of things. I almost lost my favorite water bottle yesterday. I left it in the main library 7-11 (the little food store). But it was recovered – mostly because I was eating and didn’t have anything to drink (luckily!).
Maybe I should start carrying around a stapler and start stapling things I might lose to my clothes. But I guess it would hard to drink out of my water bottle if it was stapled to me.
the thin line between optimism and delusion... 
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