Sarah used to always clean our apartment from top to bottom during finals. Christy told me yesterday that she watched a basketball game on tv the other night. Yesterday I went to a spinning class. I have been to spinning classes before – but I have never been to two spinning classes in the same month, maybe not even in the same year – because it hurts. This might have something to do with the fact that the people in my life that spin like to take the advanced classes and I would never go on my own accord.
Now, I don’t hate spinning. It can be kinda fun, if the instructor has good music (as he did last night). But I don’t really like spinning. What I do hate is how I feel the day after I spin. I feel like I have been hit by a car while riding a bike. I also don’t like to spin for the whole hour. I think it gets kinda boring – and my calves start to cramp up. Maybe if I spun (is this right? maybe did spinning?) more often, I wouldn’t cramp as badly. But somehow I doubt it. I always cramp. Part of this is that I don’t know how to take it easy when I haven’t done something in a while. I know I CAN handle it. Whether or not handling it is a good idea is a whole ‘nother story.
Halfway through the class I had to get off the bike and go walk on a treadmill to get my calf back in order. I could have handled to calf cramp if my shin muscle hadn’t decided to cramp at the same time. While walking on the treadmill it was all I could do to talk myself into going back to the class. I really didn’t want to. My whole body felt like rubber. But, being ridiculously prideful, I did. Which is why I can’t walk today.
After class, I stopped to ask the instructor what I should do about my leg cramping. First he hesitated, then he told me that I looked like a muscular person – and asked if I minded that he said that – apparently some women are highly offended by this (hopefully not women that hang out in gyms). Once I assured him that I accepted this fact years ago – he then told me that because I was muscular and because I appeared to have little body fat – I would be prone to cramps. Now, normally I would be happy for someone to tell me I have little body fat. But I always lose a lot of weight during exams and this time has been an extreme. I only did the spinning class for a stress release, not to lose weight. And I don’t like the drastic weight loss during finals, it just seems so unhealthy. It bothers me that my mental stress can cause my body to react in such a negative way. Oh well, I guess I will just have to start eating more snickers. (poor me).
After class I went to Publix and bought a bunch of groceries to make me feel better about taking positive steps to eat enough. I had the most pleasant experience in Publix, everyone was really nice – it was refreshing.
p.s. LOST was so scary last night!!!!! I love this show, really, really, really love it.
the thin line between optimism and delusion... 