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Sleeping.

I think a lot of people in law school have a hard time sleeping. I have a hard time sleeping a lot of time, I take adderrol, and although it doesn’t do all the crazy things to me that it does to someone without the chemical imbalance (yeah, don’t fight with me, I have a chemical imbalance), but it does make it more difficult to sleep. Coupled with the stress that accompanies law school, sleeping can be difficult.

Some law students like to drink heavily every night and that helps them sleep. I don’t want to be that law student. Some people like to take tylenol PM, or the like. Those kind of things scare me. I do take benadryl sometimes to help me sleep. But there has to be a better, none drug way to sleep. This is my advice to a friend that can’t sleep (and this just happens to be how I calm down, so things work different for different people, but hey):

Put clean sheets on your bed. Take a bath, or a shower (but not to hot)so that you feel all clean and fresh. Pick out a novel, something with good descriptions that isn’t too difficult and a story that you can get lost in, or if you don’t like novels, play some music. Concentrate on how good your sheets feel, and how warm you are, and how great your pillow feels, and concentrate on taking deep breaths. And read the book and don’t think, just read the story. You have to learn how to turn off your brain. If you can find a way to turn your brain off, or at least turn it down, then I promise it will be easier to fall asleep. Learn to concentrate on your luxuries, and not on your perceived shortcomings and difficulties.

I don’t think this is going to make a huge difference under extreme circumstances, such as exams, but right now in the semester, it makes a big difference for me. Sweet Dreams.

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Awesome new CD

I love the Julie Roberts CD.  I highly recommend it.  It will make you more attractive.

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Gmail the Stalker

I think Gmail has a crush on me. I woke up this morning with 50 gmail invitations. Anyone want one? It is the most fun email ever!

Update (3:32 pm) – So because I had so many invitations, I started sending them out to people in my address book.  But I only sent out like 6 because I got distracted.  So I had 44 left at around 2 this afternoon.  Well, now I have 50 again.  Is that weird?  Has this happened to anyone else?

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Pleasure Reading II

"They drifted into an ancient question-and-answer game concerned with each other’s pasts, gradually warming as they discovered the age-old, immemorial resemblances in tastes and ideas. They said things that were more revealing than they intended – but each pretended to accept the other at face, or rather word, value.     The growth of intimacy is like that. First one gives off his best picture, the bright and finished product mended with bluff and falsehood and humor. Then more details are required and one paints a second portrait, and a third – before long the best lines cancel out – and the secret is exposed at last; the planes of the pictures have intermingled and given us away, and though we paint and paint we can no longer sell a picture. We must be satisfied with hoping that such fatuous accounts of ourselves as we make to out wives and children and business associates are accepted as true."

F. Scott Fitzgerald, Anthony and Gloria falling in love,
The Beautiful and the Damned

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I got back from Colorado late last night.  I met Libby in Denver and we spent the week in Steamboat.  We went skiing, but the real reason for the trip was to visit friends.  Libby and I both worked at The Grand Lake Lodge for a summer, and it was amazing. She and I were not there for the same summer, I was at the Lodge in 2002, and she was there in 2003. Well, there are lodgelings (people who worked at the lodge, obviously) all over the world, but there are lots in Colorado and we had ourselves quite a reunion this weekend. Ruthie, Kathleen, Caroline, Zack, Steve, Andy, Alli, Jarred, Mark, and maybe a few others, my brain isn’t working this morning.

Every time I return from Colorado I have to bounce back. I feel unstable right now, I want stability in my life and going to Colorado does not provide that stability. I love going to Colorado, but it makes me discontented with my real life to a certain degree.

I want to be stable. But what does stability mean? I don’t want to be someone that is unaffected by the world around her, I don’t want to be someone who isn’t capable of being hurt or vulnerable, but at the same time I don’t want the world to be able to throw me into a funk and leave me damaged, dwelling on my mistakes and my shortcomings.

I guess my question is this, Does being stable mean that you are able to get hurt and recover, to bounce back, or does it mean more than that? Because lately I feel like I am able to not think about things that could possibility hurt my feelings, but normally it is because I am able to distract myself with something else. Right now I have enough going on that I am able to not dwell on the things that I would normally dwell on, but I don’t know how healthy relying on distractions can possibly be. I know that it has a lot to do with my age, and where I am in life, etc, etc. I think I would just like to think that I am growing up through these things, that I am learning how to deal with the real world.

This idea is expressed in a timely email from a friend, who describes this problem better than me:
"I feel like life is only about bouncing back, about putting yourself out there (be it by way of a move to a far-away city or with another person) and seeing how you respond when things get bad. It’s like I’m constantly asking myself "How strong am I really?" What kind of things to I NEED for support? How can I keep myself in a state of satisfaction? Why am I finding it so difficult to just BE? And why do I always want to run away?"

Running away is an insanely strong impulse.

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Tyson is my new Hero

Shannon just introduced me to Tyson. He does kinda look like Bella, but I agree that Bella should not be allowed to participate in such high risk activity, she is expensive to fix and quite delicate. Delicate like a bowling ball.

In other puppy news, I hope that y’all all watched the puppy bowl last night.  It was the cutest thing I have ever seen (EVER).  Such adorable dogs, it made me want one very badly.  But seeing as how I can barely take care of myself, I’m not sure I need a puppy.  Actually, I’m sure I don’t need a puppy.

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I like these guys.

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I love Colorado!!

The title to this post isn’t very intelligent, but I just wanted to let y’all know that I am steamboat springs with friends until Sunday, drinking sunshine wheat beer and coors light and eating hamburgers and pizza, and skiing.  I miss you all and love you!

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Interesting….

Things I learned in class today:

In Evidence:

Under The Federal Rules of Evidence 606(b) as applied in Tanner v. United States, 483 U.S. 107 (1987), jurors who drink heavily during lunch, smoke marijuana, and possibly snort cocaine while deliberating will not constitute grounds to require a grant of a motion for retrial. Preserving jury trials is very important.

In Con Law II:

Lawrence v. Texas is a sure fire way to get law students all fired up. I think discussions in class are interesting, I like to know what people think, especially people that I know personally. But sometimes it is difficult to know what the people around you think about hot topics because many social situations are just not conducive to launching into personal views, either because people will clam up and stop talking completely, or one or two people with extreme views will dominate the conversation and no one else will get a word in edgewise. Of course with your close friends you are going to know where they stand, but this is often limited to a close circle. So I think class discussion is a good place where people can voice their opinion in a logical manner and have a chance to finish a thought without some overly pushy individual attacking them. Also, if we don’t talk about issues like gay marriage in a manner that makes it personal to everyone, many people aren’t going to apply it to their real life, and we will be stuck with stagnant views.

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OMG

Okay, so I love Calvin and Hobbes, I even have a paper mache Calvin that I made in high school (my friend made Hobbes) that I am very attached to and refuse to allow my mother to throw away.  But this is a little disturbing.

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