Posted in Books on October 18, 2004| Leave a Comment »
"To think that the spectre you see is an illusion does not rob him of his terrors; it simply adds the further terror of madness itself – and then on top of that the horrible surmise that those whom the rest call mad have, all along, been the only people who see the world as it really is."
– C. S. Lewis, Perelandra
I thought this was a good October Halloweenie quote. I love Halloween.
Posted in CKP on October 18, 2004| Leave a Comment »
Me and friend. We will call her “W”. Discussion involving guy we had fun with this weekend.
Me: “That guy is absolutely adorable, I love him.”
W: “I know, he is really cute.”
Me: “Too bad he is such a child.”
W: “I like children.”
Which is true. W does like children. This might explain her tendency to gravitate towards guys that are trouble. But maybe that is the problem with women in general. We like trouble.
Posted in CKP on October 18, 2004| Leave a Comment »
“To think that the spectre you see is an illusion does not rob him of his terrors; it simply adds the further terror of madness itself – and then on top of that the horrible surmise that those whom the rest call mad have, all along, been the only people who see the world as it really is.”
– C. S. Lewis, Perelandra
I thought this was a good October Halloweenie quote. I love Halloween.
Posted in Favorite People, Food and Drink, Football, Thoughts on October 17, 2004| Leave a Comment »
I had a spectacular weekend. Nothing happened this weekend that changed my life drastically, but it was fun and happy and carefree. Things that happened:
1. Cristina, Christy and I got to spend some quality time together over a beer and some spinach dip, where we discussed the mysteries of life – racism, boys, marriage, cliques in law school, and being overly sensitive. After we sorted all of this out, we were ready for the weekend.
2. I spent some quality time with Travers, and we got to talk about the relationships in our lives. It is really nice to have a brother that is as close in age to me as Travers, because I think that everyone needs a great friend of the opposite sex to talk to about life. I definitely need his perspective, otherwise I lose touch with how men really react to women, and probably get my feelings hurt or hurt someone else’s feelings. Since I don’t believe that men and women CAN actually be very close friends and it not be more than friendship (when harry met sally), I feel blessed to have a brother.
3. Cristina and I finally experienced a Bar-B-Q place we have been driving past on occasion. It is called Jot-it-down, and it was awesome. It was awesome on a lot of different levels. It made me feel like I was in the North Georgia mountains, or maybe at the lake in South Georgia, the bottom line is that I felt like I was somewhere that was difficult to get to, and hard to get away from. The pulled pork plate came in the standard form – pulled pork, potato salad (yellow!), brunswick stew (remember we are talking about GA bbq), and two pieces of white bread. There is something comforting in this meal, and finding a new favorite bar-b-q shack is reason for celebration. Also, Jot it down has biscuits in the morning, which is oh so very exciting, especially since Athens doesn’t have a bojangles. My life is more complete.
4. I learned that there are some people that always resurface in your life. There are some people that the only thing weird about being with them is that it is so normal, so natural. And it doesn’t matter how long it has been since you saw them last, it will be just like you had seen them every day for years. And once time teaches you that the only thing that is for sure is that you will see them again, hearing their plane fly overhead as they leave can only make you smile.
5. The best kind of friends come to Athens for football games and are along for the ride. Living football games this way might decrease the amount of people you get to see, but it will definitely increase the quality of time you spend with the people you do see. I need for my friends to understand that I have had to go on with my life in Athens, and that they are going to leave me here on Sunday and go back to their own lives elsewhere. It is okay if we don’t get to hang out every Friday night.
6. If you like cosmopolitans, the bartender at Blue Sky named Mark, makes the best cosmo I have ever had in Athens.
7. I discovered that they sell french fries and hamburgers at Sanford Stadium, in the southeast side on the 200 level. I was impressed.
8. I found out that it is easier to lay on the sofa all day on Sunday when you don’t have a car and have no way to go anywhere.
9. I have a newly renewed hate for Tennessee, and I don’t think that their record is indicative of what kind of team they are. I just hope South Carolina is having a good day with the volunteers come to Columbia.
10. After hanging out with an awesome dog, I realized how much I wish my life allowed me to have a dog. Even though I know I am not responsible enough, and I have a hard enough time just taking care of myself, I still wish I could have one. I miss my dogs.
11. I bought a plane ticket to visit Libby and Maggie in NYC in November. It has been a long time since I have been to the city and I am looking forward to it. I fly out on a thursday night and I get back very early on Monday morning. By that time it will have been a long time since I have seen Libby or Maggie and I will need them. It will also be the last fun thing I get to do before I have to come back and be serious about exams.
12. Desmond and Emily won the mock trial competition. I am so very proud of both of them, they deserve this. I was in attendence, and I was impressed with both of their litigation skills.
Posted in CKP on October 17, 2004| Leave a Comment »
I had a spectacular weekend. Nothing happened this weekend that changed my life drastically, but it was fun and happy and carefree. Things that happened:
1. Cristina, Christy and I got to spend some quality time together over a beer and some spinach dip, where we discussed the mysteries of life – racism, boys, marriage, cliques in law school, and being overly sensitive. After we sorted all of this out, we were ready for the weekend.
2. I spent some quality time with Travers, and we got to talk about the relationships in our lives. It is really nice to have a brother that is as close in age to me as Travers, because I think that everyone needs a great friend of the opposite sex to talk to about life. I definitely need his perspective, otherwise I lose touch with how men really react to women, and probably get my feelings hurt or hurt someone else’s feelings. Since I don’t believe that men and women CAN actually be very close friends and it not be more than friendship (when harry met sally), I feel blessed to have a brother.
3. Cristina and I finally experienced a Bar-B-Q place we have been driving past on occasion. It is called Jot-it-down, and it was awesome. It was awesome on a lot of different levels. It made me feel like I was in the North Georgia mountains, or maybe at the lake in South Georgia, the bottom line is that I felt like I was somewhere that was difficult to get to, and hard to get away from. The pulled pork plate came in the standard form – pulled pork, potato salad (yellow!), brunswick stew (remember we are talking about GA bbq), and two pieces of white bread. There is something comforting in this meal, and finding a new favorite bar-b-q shack is reason for celebration. Also, Jot it down has biscuits in the morning, which is oh so very exciting, especially since Athens doesn’t have a bojangles. My life is more complete.
4. I learned that there are some people that always resurface in your life. There are some people that the only thing weird about being with them is that it is so normal, so natural. And it doesn’t matter how long it has been since you saw them last, it will be just like you had seen them every day for years. And once time teaches you that the only thing that is for sure is that you will see them again, hearing their plane fly overhead as they leave can only make you smile.
5. The best kind of friends come to Athens for football games and are along for the ride. Living football games this way might decrease the amount of people you get to see, but it will definitely increase the quality of time you spend with the people you do see. I need for my friends to understand that I have had to go on with my life in Athens, and that they are going to leave me here on Sunday and go back to their own lives elsewhere. It is okay if we don’t get to hang out every Friday night.
6. If you like cosmopolitans, the bartender at Blue Sky named Mark, makes the best cosmo I have ever had in Athens.
7. I discovered that they sell french fries and hamburgers at Sanford Stadium, in the southeast side on the 200 level. I was impressed.
8. I found out that it is easier to lay on the sofa all day on Sunday when you don’t have a car and have no way to go anywhere.
9. I have a newly renewed hate for Tennessee, and I don’t think that their record is indicative of what kind of team they are. I just hope South Carolina is having a good day with the volunteers come to Columbia.
10. After hanging out with an awesome dog, I realized how much I wish my life allowed me to have a dog. Even though I know I am not responsible enough, and I have a hard enough time just taking care of myself, I still wish I could have one. I miss my dogs.
11. I bought a plane ticket to visit Libby and Maggie in NYC in November. It has been a long time since I have been to the city and I am looking forward to it. I fly out on a thursday night and I get back very early on Monday morning. By that time it will have been a long time since I have seen Libby or Maggie and I will need them. It will also be the last fun thing I get to do before I have to come back and be serious about exams.
12. Desmond and Emily won the mock trial competition. I am so very proud of both of them, they deserve this. I was in attendence, and I was impressed with both of their litigation skills.
Posted in Athens on October 15, 2004| Leave a Comment »
It is so beautiful outside, and it is cold. It is unbelievably refreshing to walk outside and be hit by the coolness and warmed by the sun. North Campus has that damp feel of a big backyard with lots of big old trees that have dropped leaves and acorns but still prevent the sunlight from drying the dirt. I had a dream last night that another tree fell down on north campus, which would upset me greatly and I am glad that it was just a dream. I am in the annex, and I forget how much I enjoy the annex. It is very quiet, and if you work it out right, you can surround yourself with friends and still get work done, which is a spectacular state of affairs in my opinion, and one I have found very few places. I have good feelings about this weekend, it promises to be cold and laid back. I don’t think I have any friends coming to visit, which in a lot of ways is sad, but it is also nice to relax. Three home football games in a row is enough to wear on anyone. I had a great night last night, I hung out with five girls that I adore, we drank a few beers and ate pizza and candy, I talked to a far away friend on the phone, and I got a good night sleep. Desmond and Emily are going to dominate in mock trial today and I can’t wait. Christy is such a sympathetic witness. I am so proud of them!
Posted in CKP on October 15, 2004| Leave a Comment »
It is so beautiful outside, and it is cold. It is unbelievably refreshing to walk outside and be hit by the coolness and warmed by the sun. North Campus has that damp feel of a big backyard with lots of big old trees that have dropped leaves and acorns but still prevent the sunlight from drying the dirt. I had a dream last night that another tree fell down on north campus, which would upset me greatly and I am glad that it was just a dream. I am in the annex, and I forget how much I enjoy the annex. It is very quiet, and if you work it out right, you can surround yourself with friends and still get work done, which is a spectacular state of affairs in my opinion, and one I have found very few places. I have good feelings about this weekend, it promises to be cold and laid back. I don’t think I have any friends coming to visit, which in a lot of ways is sad, but it is also nice to relax. Three home football games in a row is enough to wear on anyone. I had a great night last night, I hung out with five girls that I adore, we drank a few beers and ate pizza and candy, I talked to a far away friend on the phone, and I got a good night sleep. Desmond and Emily are going to dominate in mock trial today and I can’t wait. Christy is such a sympathetic witness. I am so proud of them!
Posted in Georgia on October 14, 2004| Leave a Comment »
It has started to get cold here in the deep south. I use the term deep south with some misgivings, because I never know exactly what the term means. It seems to be safe to say that Georgia is the deep south, but people in Louisiana might disagree. I have a hard time with Louisiana being the southeast, because it isn’t very "east" – but I don’t have any reason . I feel comfortable with Georgia being the center of the Southeast, but that doesn’t help with what is the deep south. Geographically, Florida would be the deep south. But, many folks don’t consider Florida part of the south at all – even though parts of it are simply continuations of Georgia and Alabama, and it isn’t fair to leave them out. I am more familiar with the states that border Georgia to the East and north, and less familiar with the western side of the South Eastern Conference, so I don’t know how Alabama, Mississippi and Louisiana fit into the whole deep south. (According to weather.com, the deep south is Louisiana and Mississippi).
I had someone from Louisiana tell me that unless I grew up south of I-20 that I wasn’t southern. The house I grew up in is actually about a mile south of I-20. I am always amazed by southerners who want to exclude people. I am learning that it is human nature to want to exclude people, and I know that I am as guilty of it as anyone, but I find it fascinating. I don’t think people in the south are worse about this than people other places, people just like to think we are.
Today it is chilly and overcast, and I love this kind of day, even if it is simply for the contrast of the bright pretty sunny days. I can’t believe it is already Thursday. I am looking forward to this weekend. I hope everyone is having a beautiful day and a spectacular week.
Posted in CKP on October 14, 2004| 1 Comment »
It has started to get cold here in the deep south. I use the term deep south with some misgivings, because I never know exactly what the term means. It seems to be safe to say that Georgia is the deep south, but people in Louisiana might disagree. I have a hard time with Louisiana being the southeast, because it isn’t very “east” – but I don’t have any reason . I feel comfortable with Georgia being the center of the Southeast, but that doesn’t help with what is the deep south. Geographically, Florida would be the deep south. But, many folks don’t consider Florida part of the south at all – even though parts of it are simply continuations of Georgia and Alabama, and it isn’t fair to leave them out. I am more familiar with the states that border Georgia to the East and north, and less familiar with the western side of the South Eastern Conference, so I don’t know how Alabama, Mississippi and Louisiana fit into the whole deep south.
I had someone from Louisiana tell me that unless I grew up south of I-20 that I wasn’t southern. The house I grew up in is actually about a mile south of I-20. I am always amazed by southerners who want to exclude people. I am learning that it is human nature to want to exclude people, and I know that I am as guilty of it as anyone, but I find it fascinating. I don’t think people in the south are worse about this than people other places, people just like to think we are.
Today it is chilly and overcast, and I love this kind of day, even if it is simply for the contrast of the bright pretty sunny days. I can’t believe it is already Thursday. I am looking forward to this weekend. I hope everyone is having a beautiful day and a spectacular week.
Posted in Colorado, Thoughts on October 14, 2004| Leave a Comment »
I have been watching the new WB show, the Mountain. I like the show, it is the typical WB style, nothing out of the ordinary. But what kills me about the show is that it makes me think about Colorado. And I love Colorado. I would compare my feelings of Colorado to that of an ex-boyfriend that I am not over and probably never will be over. I only lived in Colorado for three months, and I don’t have an ex-boyfriend out there, but it is the only way to express the feelings I have for the place.
This is the kind of ex I am talking about. The one that never REALLY hurt you, and at times made you exceptionally happy, but the one that you always kind of knew was not permanent, for whatever reason. It is the kind of ex that you like to dream about, what if it had – or could have – been permanent? You wonder what they are doing now. You might even get in touch with them and go visit them. Or randomly run into them. And while you are with them, everything is perfect. You are someone different while they are present. But not different in a bad way – just different. More Alive. And seeing them is exhilarating. But something brings you back to your current life – something. It is different for everyone. And even though you have these feelings, they are not strong enough to pull you away from where you are now. It is in the past. Something about the lack of reality, either in the situation, or in the intensity, or in the other person, detaches you in the midst of the rush.
This is how I feel about Colorado. This is how the mountains make me feel. They make me take a deeper breath. Some of my most favorite people in the world live in Colorado. And some I just met there. I lived there in the summer. But I have had a few very intense winter experiences – enough to envision myself there in the winter. And the high points are so very high. I can think of no other place where I would enjoy more sheer pleasure and delight in the world. Just the sky makes me dizzy – but different than the sky in Greece.
It is not enough. Somehow I think I would be lonely in Colorado. I know I would be cold. For some reason I am very afraid of missing something here. Which is totally stupid, but it is still something I can’t shake. What am I looking for here? I don’t know. What would I be looking for there that would be so different? There is a lack of reality in Colorado that I think might wear me out. Is it the fear of running away from reality that scares me? See, here I am trying to justify why I should get back together with my ex. I adore Colorado – but I am confident that it is not right for me right now. Just the way I feel about certain people.
I’m telling you, getting emotionally attached to places is just as dangerous as getting emotionally attached to people. Because – for the most part – you can’t change them, you just have to love them the way they are. I have an amazing painting of a mountain I love above my bed, it is an icon that represents more than I can express here. Being content is a virtue, a lesson to learn.
the thin line between optimism and delusion... 