the thin line between optimism and delusion…

I had such a fabulous weekend. I have kinda been down since I got back toschool, and this weekend left me happy and excited about life again. Sometimes when I drink a great deal of alcohol in one sitting I end up depressed the next day, and that is when it really hits me that I am unhappy and something is wrong. I think this is because alcohol compounds the things that are bothering you and makes them worse. So, it is really only when things are going well and you are happy that alcohol can really be fun. It is also easier to keep things under control when you are happy. Drinking because you are depressed is like going under water to get some air.

I like to think that last week was a turning point in the semester. I calmed down, and got into the swing of things, and I feel better. I decided that I can’t worry about boys, that I just don’t have the energy. So lacking the energy, I am cutting out a piece of stress. Not that I’m planning on cutting boys out, just the stress of worrying about it. Things have a tendency to work out better that way. I was much better about making sure I ate enough food, I know this sounds stupid, but when I don’t eat enough I get depressed cause I am tired all the time. So I am now eating more, worrying less, and being calmer than I was before.

My parents were in town this weekend, and they were both in a great mood. I think they are excited about football season. We went to the Last Resort for dinner on friday, and it was awesome. Then on saturday they came to the law school tailgate up on north campus and that was also lots of fun.

Another reason this weekend was spectacular is because Libby came in town. We had a great time, when I woke up on saturday my sides hurt from laughing all night long. I saw lots of fun people friday, one them a loyal livejournal friend, Paige, who is awesome and lives in my hometown and works at the tv station. I think people that work at tv stations are kind of famous because they control the news. Another highlight of friday night was the easy mac that Libby and ate when we got home that night. It was the greatest thing we had ever eaten in our lives.

The law school tailgate was a huge success. I am really pumped that we had such a great turn out. I want to tailgate there all the time. It is nice being right there near downtown and in the middle of everything. I have big dreams for all the other games. The game was not actually that much fun for me, it started off poorly when the ticket checker girl for our section threw Christy’s hotdog on me and I had ketchup and mustard all over me for the rest of the day. But it is at least a great story.

Saturday night was a bit of a blur, We(libby, cristina and me) started off with Travers and the Augusta crew, then we went to Ga. Bar to hang out with law school friends (who were all quite lit up), from there we had a few chill moments at The Manhattan (for libby and patrick, since they live in manhattan), and then we picked up the night by heading to the dance club (I love the dance club), and we finished the night off at Tasty World, where we luckily ran into Travers. Travers paid some random girls with a car $20 to take us home (after we dropped the girl’s friend off at boars head) and the night ending with some more easy mac and laughing. Travers slept on the blow up mattress instead of the pull out sofa because he didn’t want to wait for me to pull the sofa out. Over all it was an awesome weekend, one to be remembered for the record books. Last night we (me and Christy and Cristina) went over to Christian’s and he cooked us chicken and hamburgers and we watched the washington football game with Nick and all our law school boy friends. It was yummy. I have good feelings about this year, I am in high spirits as to the possibilities ahead of us. Not with regards to SCHOOL, but with regards to life in general and to being an overall happy and fulfilled individual. I love you all. Kisses.