This weather is almost more than I can handle. I LOVE it. The only thing that I don’t love is the fact that whatever is in the air makes me feel sick. Like, I have a terrible cold but I don’t actually feel bad sick. My throat hurts. But I’m not sick. I have started taking my adderoll again full time (crazy people never like to take their medicine and I am no exception), and I didn’t sleep very well last night. So when I woke up this morning, I wanted to pretend like I was sick. But, I wasn’t. And I have stuff to do today. I have an interview in about a half an hour, and I have volunteered to be Elizabeth and Staci’s witness for mock trial (since Christy and I dropped out). After being up for a couple of hours I am glad I didn’t try to be sick today. If you didn’t know, I am a hypochondriac, and a lot of times the only thing that is going to keep me pretending to be sick is a busy schedule.
My friends Emily and Jennifer and moving to DC, and it is sad. These are two of my best friends in the whole world and I am going to really miss them. With Libby in New York, I feel like everyone is leaving me and I have to stay. Emily already went up there for good, and Jennifer is leaving after this weekend. The one thing this weather really makes me wish I had is a front porch. I need a front porch. So I think I am going to go home this weekend and sit on my parents front porch, with my dogs. I miss my dogs. I feel so torn sometimes when it comes to Augusta and Athens. This week I have this overwhelming desire to live in a neighborhood with a big porch and backyard. Jennifer says this is just something that happens sometimes in Athens and that I should "shake it off." And she is right.
I have felt unstable since I came back from Greece, and I think this is part of the problem. I went to Greece because I wanted to get out. And I had such an intense experience. I was so emotionally exhausted, and I don’t think I have recharged yet. I am hoping that some of my friends from Greece are going to come visit for the LSU and the Tennessee game, because I think that will help me. I really miss them. I didn’t realize how much I missed them until I talked to a bunch of them last week, checking on the hurricane in New Orleans and just finally getting in touch with other ones (like Kallie and Niki). So, Greece friends, if you get this, I love you and I miss you.
I just had an interview, and it was fun. The girl that interviewed me was a Theta at Florida State, and so we got along. It is a litigation firm in Birmingham, and although I know there are things about litigation that don’t sound appealing, part of it seems like a lot of fun. And I liked these people. We will see, interviewing is good experience.
the thin line between optimism and delusion... 
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