the thin line between optimism and delusion…

I am happily piled up in my own bed, and after sleeping on a good old friends sofa last night, it is nice to be in the bed. I got to hang out with my high school favorite friends Leigh and Jennifer yesterday and it was so good to see them and just remember the dumb things we used to do. Here are some of the things we came up with:

1. Since we were all cheerleaders (Jennifer and I were both captain, she is a year older than me and leigh), at the basketball games we would commentate. Leigh and I sat next to each other the whole season one year and had imaginary headphones and microphones that we would talk into. This was amazingly enough a constant source of amusement, and a very fond memory. We felt the need to do a little commentating last night when we watched Ga Tech win the football lottery against Clemson.

2. Jennifer had a travel game of connect four, and she and I could play connect four for hours. For some reason our basketball coach wouldn’t let the players talk on the bus on the way to the games, and since we played lots of teams 2 hours away from augusta (not that augusta doesn’t have enough high schools within the county (I think there are 12), but maybe the georgia high school association though it would be fun to waste gas having us drive to Statesboro, Dublin, and Swainsboro; more understandable were Thomson and Burke County, but still), and Jennifer and I decided that we could play connect four in silence. This was only the beginning of course because we kept playing connnect four, through a couple more football (where the cheerleaders got their own bus) and a few more basketball seasons. I promise anyone that doesn’t think connect four is a fun game is an idiot and hasn’t played it enough. It takes pure skill.

3. We discussed how fun it was to go to school all day long and not learn a thing except how to survive in the halls without getting hurt. We decided that this made us much more well rounded individuals.

4. We decided that it was gross that there were only about 4 places we would eat, and we ate at these places numerous times a week. The places consisted of Teresa’s (the best mexican restauraunt in America and one of my favorite places in the world), Bojangles (Biscuits all day!), Dairy Queen (we used to hang out at dairy queen on the weekends. come to think about it, we also used to hang out at Bojangles, until they started arresting people for loitering, you had to buy something, but they would let you smoke inside, how gross is that?), and Zaxby’s (anyone that knows me understands).

on the subject of gross things we used to do with food, we would go to tennis practice from 2:45-3:30 (the tennis team wasn’t real serious), go to Dairy Queen and pick up a blizzard, eat it real fast, change shoes, and go to soccer practice from 4-6. How gross is that? But we ate so many blizzards that we had built up a tolerance. Like those people who drink alcohol first thing in the morning (you know, lawyers), they have the tolerance. Or you might say they have a problem. Well, I used to be addicted to Dairy Queen Blizzards. Either reeses peanut butter cup or snickers, sometimes oreo, and I did go through a reeses pieces phase. I love chocolate basically. I can’t imagine how much money I spent on blizzards. I could have probably been a smoker for cheaper. Okay, I could tell you stories about my Dairy Queen for hours, but I will stop now because it could be its own entry.

Oh, and like everyone in high school, we used to do drive-bys. If you don’t know what they are, you were never in high school. Okay, enough reminiscing. Kisses.

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Really Important
Antoine de St. Exupery

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I woke up this morning to the most beautiful day ever, and it was a couple of hours into my day before I realized why I loved this day so much. It is September 9th. Now, some people might see no reason why September 9th should be exciting, but it is 9/9. And I love all dates that are the same number twice. My birthday is 10/10, my mom’s birthday is 5/5, Emily’s birthday is 8/8, I know there are lots of other people whose birthdays are also double digits, I just can’t remember them now. As a child I had a really hard time remembering which came first, the date or the month when you wrote a date with the slashes (/), because as far as my birthday was concerned, it didn’t matter. Maybe I just always wanted to be European and couldn’t make up my mind. I think I have it under control now, but I still have slip ups, I think it is a mental block. So everyone should be super excited about the fact that it is 9/9, go outside, and enjoy this wonderful weather (unless of course you live somewhere that it is raining, sorry Libby).

Appel is being really nice today and just lecturing and not calling on anyone. I really hope he doesn’t start calling on me, because I am totally lost, but I am interested in CERCLA and superfund, I am just behind in my reading and don’t know what is going on. I love Tuesdays and Thursdays, because Environmental law and Trust and Estates are my favorite classes. Really, I am in quite a gushing mood, I might have to keep going with the happiness for a while and tell you some more things that I love.

I love getting clean towels out of the dryer, it makes me think of when I was little and my mom would throw clean hot towels on me when I was sitting on the sofa. The warmth, the smell, the great feeling of clean towels. I love this.

I love laying in the grass in my backyard with my dogs on a warm day while they run around and step on me. Bo and Bella both like to roll in the grass and jump up and rush at me and jump in my lap. When the wind is blowing and the sunshine coming through the trees is shifting in the breeze and the air smells like grass and black dirt and acorns and pine straw, I don’t want for anything.

Okay, class is over and I am finished with gushing for right now, I’m sure it might happen again because it such a wonderful day and I am such a fantabulous mood. kisses.

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I just wanted to give a shoutout to Brandon Ansley, he is awesome and reads my journal, which means a great deal to me. So everyone, today is Brandon Ansley Day, tell him hello and make sure he knows the we at the UGA law school are lucky to have him around all the time. Without him, law school would suck.

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I found a quote book that I had lost, and I came across this poem and I really like it.  I’m sure you have probably read it before, but I am happier everytime I read it. 

Desiderata

     Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence.  As far as possible without surrender, be on good terms with all persons.  Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even the dull and ignorant; they too have their story. 

    Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit.  If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter, for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.  Enjoy your achievement as well as your plans. 

    Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.  Exercise caution in your business affairs; for the world is full of trickery.  But let this not bind you to what virtue there is, many persons strive for high ideals; and everywhere life is full of heroism. 

    Be yourself.  Especially, do not feign affection.  Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is perennial as the grass. 

    Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.  Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.  But do not distress yourself with imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.  Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. 

    You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here.  And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should. 

    Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive him to be, and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul. 

    With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world.  Be careful.  Strive to be happy. 

                                                      –  found in Old Saint Paul’s Church,

                                                          Baltimore, dated 1692.

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I had such a fabulous weekend. I have kinda been down since I got back toschool, and this weekend left me happy and excited about life again. Sometimes when I drink a great deal of alcohol in one sitting I end up depressed the next day, and that is when it really hits me that I am unhappy and something is wrong. I think this is because alcohol compounds the things that are bothering you and makes them worse. So, it is really only when things are going well and you are happy that alcohol can really be fun. It is also easier to keep things under control when you are happy. Drinking because you are depressed is like going under water to get some air.

I like to think that last week was a turning point in the semester. I calmed down, and got into the swing of things, and I feel better. I decided that I can’t worry about boys, that I just don’t have the energy. So lacking the energy, I am cutting out a piece of stress. Not that I’m planning on cutting boys out, just the stress of worrying about it. Things have a tendency to work out better that way. I was much better about making sure I ate enough food, I know this sounds stupid, but when I don’t eat enough I get depressed cause I am tired all the time. So I am now eating more, worrying less, and being calmer than I was before.

My parents were in town this weekend, and they were both in a great mood. I think they are excited about football season. We went to the Last Resort for dinner on friday, and it was awesome. Then on saturday they came to the law school tailgate up on north campus and that was also lots of fun.

Another reason this weekend was spectacular is because Libby came in town. We had a great time, when I woke up on saturday my sides hurt from laughing all night long. I saw lots of fun people friday, one them a loyal livejournal friend, Paige, who is awesome and lives in my hometown and works at the tv station. I think people that work at tv stations are kind of famous because they control the news. Another highlight of friday night was the easy mac that Libby and ate when we got home that night. It was the greatest thing we had ever eaten in our lives.

The law school tailgate was a huge success. I am really pumped that we had such a great turn out. I want to tailgate there all the time. It is nice being right there near downtown and in the middle of everything. I have big dreams for all the other games. The game was not actually that much fun for me, it started off poorly when the ticket checker girl for our section threw Christy’s hotdog on me and I had ketchup and mustard all over me for the rest of the day. But it is at least a great story.

Saturday night was a bit of a blur, We(libby, cristina and me) started off with Travers and the Augusta crew, then we went to Ga. Bar to hang out with law school friends (who were all quite lit up), from there we had a few chill moments at The Manhattan (for libby and patrick, since they live in manhattan), and then we picked up the night by heading to the dance club (I love the dance club), and we finished the night off at Tasty World, where we luckily ran into Travers. Travers paid some random girls with a car $20 to take us home (after we dropped the girl’s friend off at boars head) and the night ending with some more easy mac and laughing. Travers slept on the blow up mattress instead of the pull out sofa because he didn’t want to wait for me to pull the sofa out. Over all it was an awesome weekend, one to be remembered for the record books. Last night we (me and Christy and Cristina) went over to Christian’s and he cooked us chicken and hamburgers and we watched the washington football game with Nick and all our law school boy friends. It was yummy. I have good feelings about this year, I am in high spirits as to the possibilities ahead of us. Not with regards to SCHOOL, but with regards to life in general and to being an overall happy and fulfilled individual. I love you all. Kisses.

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