As much as I hate exams, I love the library during exams. Everyone is a little on edge, but at the same time looking for a laugh or a break or a happy thought. I know it will get worse once exams really get going, but right now I like it. It is nice to have everyone here and to not have class. I am definitely glad to be back in the library as opposed to studying by myself. Now, this probably means I am going to fail con law, but hey. I love that my friends know how I get distracted and make me go back to my work. It is encouraging that they care.
What I dislike is how all the librarians seem to be unaware that we have anything to do (even thought I might act like I don’t have anything to do). I’m in the annex, and there are some offices in the annex, but normally it is quiet. For some reason today (of all days) the people that work in these offices feel the need to stand outside their doors and yell at each other and disrupt the otherwise enveloping silence. it also seems to be orientation day for new librarians, because they keep coming in and showing people around and talking loudly about how they know they will "fit right in." They won’t fit in if I throw them over the balcony.
I find the turning of pages and the clicking of keyboards and the opening and closing of doors and binders and the zipping and unzipping of bags and the fzzzzz of a coke can being opened and the clicking of keys comforting – it keeps it from being too quiet. But when the librarians breeze through with an obvious oblivion to the rest of us, I get a little edgy. When was the last time you felt the need to yell at the librarian to shut up? Isn’t that their job? I’m thinking about throwing the big black’s law dictionary at them. But I don’t think my aim is anything special today.
Now, I do understand that the computer people have a right to be a little more noisy right now than normally, because exams are their busy time. But they aren’t really the problem. It is the librarians. I know the difference. I come here often.
But really, I am having a wonderful day. I love my friends here. As jennifer said to me once, "Well, even if this isn’t what you want to do, I’m glad that you have found your people."
the thin line between optimism and delusion... 
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