As it turns out, I’m not quite the travel agent that I like to believe. I bought my plane ticket for this week during finals. I am incapacitated for normal activity during finals. I’ve said it before. But this is a great example. My flight was suppose to leave tomorrow. But some how I made a mistake on the computer and booked it for the 30th, then I never looked at the confirmation (something my dad always tells me to do, I know, I know).
So instead of leaving tomorrow and getting to spend some quality time in DC, I am leaving on Thursday and will only be in DC for a night. That sucks. But as libby said, it could be much worse. I could have booked it for today and missed it completely. That would be much worse. It is still going to be an awesome week, but I am going to miss Cybil’s party and that is going to suck. Oh well. At least I still get to go.
Sometimes I wonder if I am ever going to be a completely functional adult. I kinda doubt it. This is distressing.
I was taking a personality test and my mom was helping me, and I asked her on a scale from 1-5 (1 the least, 5 the most) whether she thought I was a perfectionist or not, and she said a 4. This surprised me because I don’t see myself as a perfectionist, but apparently I have perfectionist tendencies. I think this basically boils down to the fact that I am hard on myself. I don’t mean to be. I don’t know why it happens, or where the pressure comes from, because I don’t think the people in my life pressure me too much, but it is there anyway. And it causes me to be disappointed in myself for making mistakes that could have been avoided – like my plane ticket. I had to learn a long time ago to not put ridiculous expectations on the people in my life because no one is perfect and I am setting myself up for disappointment in addition to alienating people. I guess I am still learning how to do that for myself. Oh well.
But I am still soo excited about spending the weekend with my favorite people in such fun cities!!!!! Can’t wait, can’t wait!!!!! Happy New Year’s!!!!!!
the thin line between optimism and delusion... 
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