Tonight I am going to my fourth wedding in five weeks, and my last wedding for a while. My summer wedding tour 2005 will be over. Which is good, because I was starting to get tired.
But I am looking forward to tonight. It should be fun. The rehearsal dinner last night was very pretty and the food was great. I had an upsetting run in with a cab driver on my way home from downtown last night, but other than that it was a good night. I apologize if I called you last night and left you an overly dramatic voice mail, I was a little distressed. I’ve regained my composure.
I still have a cold, which sucks, but I’m fighting through it.
I don’t know why, but I’ve kind of had a chip on my shoulder the last couple of days. I’ve been a little overly sensitive, and a bit defensive. I hate it when I act like that, hopefully I will be able to brush my shoulders off and get a grip. I think sometimes I just get a little overly analytical. Actually, more than that, I think I have been rather negative lately, and critical of others. This is going to stop now. Sometimes I think I am being hilarious, when really I am just being mean.
So from now on I’m going to be more positive and less critical. Basically, I haven’t been very loving, and loving charlsie is much more pleasant than unloving charlsie.
I apologize if I have given you a hard time lately or picked on you, or made any comments that hurt your feelings, and call me out if I do it again, because from now on I am going to be much nicer, which in turn will make me much happier. I love you all!!
the thin line between optimism and delusion... 
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