I don’t know if I would say that it is my happiest moment of every day – but it wouldn’t be a stretch. And it is definitely my most consistently happy moment.
I LOVE the moment before you go to sleep – once you are in bed – and have finished reading, or watching tv. or talking on the phone, after you have turned the light off and you snuggle down into the covers and think about the fact that you are finally in bed for the night. It doesn’t matter if I have been laying in bed all day playing sick – that moment of turning off the light and burrowing in affords me a great deal of happiness.
Of course – the best is when you have been ridiculously busy and are bone tired and have finally made it home. And second to that is when you have been out at night and wanting to go home and someone finally agrees to take a cab home with you or volunteers to drive you home and like magic you are safe and sound in bed and not out worried about how you are going to get home and whether or not it might take you two hours. Because I don’t like to drive home after I have been out at the bar. It is very bad judgment.
I made some vegetable soup tonight. It tasted pretty good – maybe a little bland – but I am hoping that it will be even better tomorrow. I totally burned my mouth on it – it took so long to cook and I was so hungry I kind of lost patience and now I am paying for it.
In other news – I am happy to report that the whole town of Athens didn’t wash away under a flash flood this afternoon. I have never seen such rain before in my life – it was very annoying. I bet the trails are all washed to hell and back. Gah.
So – I am caught up on this new season of 24 which makes me very happy for a couple of reasons. First – it is a good show and fun to watch. Second – because everyone I know – okay – every boy I know and a lot of girls- is obsessed with it – and I hate to be missing out of something so exciting – I’m a sheep.
Everyone say a little prayer that I don’t wake up in the morning sick. Something is going around and I’m a hypochondriac.
Oh – so I watched the Pride and Prejudice miniseries from 1995 or something today and yesterday. Jennifer and I have been discussing the characters in this oh so awesome story at great lengths lately. She says that I am like Jane because I always want to think the best of people and I’m always optimistic to a fault about people’s intentions. And I just had an epiphany about what this means if it is true, or what it might mean.
So here is my question – and I would love everyone’s opinion on the situation. If I am the kind of person who genuinely likes almost everyone – do you not believe me when I tell you someone is awesome and that you will love them? Like – if you are my friend and I tell you about one of my other friends who lives somewhere else or who you don’t know – and I tell you this other friend is great and you should get excited about meeting them – do you believe me? Or do you think in the back of your mind – what ev – Charlsie likes everyone – we will see if they are really that great? Does my recommendation hold any weight? Or is it tainted by my lack of discretion with my affections?
I’m not sure about that – but I have observed that when I don’t like someone – people tend to take note of it because I like everyone and I must have a good reason for disliking this particular person if I make such enormous allowances for everyone else.
But I would like to use my powers for good as well as evil. What do you think?
the thin line between optimism and delusion... 