Yesterday was my last day of school, ever. I don’t really know what to think about that. I have been taking classes on north campus for the past seven years. I don’t know anything else. Otis says it won’t sink in until august. I think he is right.
I feel like it is the weekend. It isn’t.
I’m in the annex. I like the annex. I don’t actually like to study – but I love the annex. Books make me feel comfortable. And I like the annex during finals. With no classes, it is very calm.
Law students are weird – but they are my kind of weird.
Last night was tons of fun. Betsy and I decided that we won. And we don’t care if you disagree. Faris gave me a ride home, cause she loves me.
I was looking at some pictures on the facebook of colorado and grand lake. It made me really colorado sick. Really colorado sick. I haven’t been to colorado since august. It is partially the people, and partially the mountains, and partially the sunshine, and partially my own idealistic craziness. Mostly the mountains and the sunshine. I need a lot of sunshine and the mountains make me feel safe. Except ledges. I’m secretly terribly frightened of ledges. Which is a bit of a stumbling block when it comes to my skiing ability. As long as I just go ahead and ski off the ledge and don’t think about it – I’m okay. But as soon as I look over the ledge, it is over. I guess that is sort of like life. Ledges make me feel weird. Like, if I’m really scared of them – what possesses me to get close to them, much less ski off them?
Christy and I went to bojangles this morning. It was excellent. EXCELLENT.
I need to figure out what I am going to do with my life. Something in me is really happy I’m not committed to anything yet. And part of me is a little panicked.
I won’t think about that today, I’ll think about that tomorrow.
the thin line between optimism and delusion... 