the thin line between optimism and delusion…

I can’t decide whether I should study in the annex tomorrow, or the student learning center. 

I also can’t decide whether or not I should go to the grocery store tonight. 

If I did go to the grocery store, what would I buy?

If I don’t go to the grocery store, what will I eat?

I’m anticipating waking up in the middle of the night and being frightened by the thunderstorms.  I love thunderstorms, but I prefer having someone to watch them with in the middle of the afternoon with a bottle of wine and deep thoughts about life and a dog who is afraid. 

I don’t like large hail and strong winds in the middle of the night. 

I can’t decide if I think it is a good idea for me to try to push through some more work tonight, since I didn’t get much done today, or if I should just go home. 

I keep forgetting that I have to go to the DMV tomorrow and get my fingers printed, all of which are a huge pain.  I keep thinking all I have to do is get up and make it back here to the library at a decent time. 

I forgot about bible study tonight because I get really confused during finals and I seem to be under the impression that the world stops turning and everything else stops for me to study. 

I can’t decide whether to put my books back in my locker, or just take them with me to the car.  Either way it seems like a hassle. 

I can’t remember where I parked my car. 

I feel like I deserve a treat before I go to sleep, but I can’t think of anything that I actually want. 

The back of my car looks like a bomb exploded in it. 

I guess my room probably looks the same way.  Maybe I should just blow up my apartment and start over.  Nah. 

But I am in a rather chipper mood despite the fact that I lack decision making skills and have short term memory loss. 

I wonder what I can watch on tv when I get home.  Maybe I’ll read one of my new books. 

Decisions, decisions.